depressing


 There's this girl in the mirror, I wonder who she is. Sometimes I think I know her and sometimes I wish I did.  There is a story in her eyes, lullabies, and goodbye.  When she's looking back at me I can tell...she's hurting inside.

一双蛮舒服很普通的平底鞋与一双高贵但随时会让你跌的遍体鳞伤的高跟鞋,你会选择哪一双呢?


答案:赤脚

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Yesterday reached home around 10.30pm. After settled everything, I decided to sign in my msn(d long time didn’t sign in) & find some1 for chatting. The moment I on9 in msn, something pop out! “Cy! Cy!” Somebody sent this to me. Sound like something happen and this person is it going to tell me some bad news? The next sentence that person sent to me is… “He got some problems”. Mmm…who is him? ‘He’ refers to…? I asked that person & I got this answer ‘the one who is in the hospital’. Huh? Who is in the hospital? I asked again & again. I got an answer in my mind, but I don’t wish that is the answer. I’m panic. I asked that person who is that person! Say clearly plz! That person told me that ‘he’ got healthy problem & start explaining what the problem is. The person didn’t answer me who is ‘he’. At the moment I’m going to be crazy, I asked that person ‘tell me who is in the hospital now?’ ‘Okay, nobody in the hospital, ‘XX’ also not in the hospital’ Finally that person gv me ‘his’ name.(As I expected.) I continued asking that person what is happening. I almost wanna call to him and asking what is happening. In the end, that person said this is a joke, and that person always uses this kind of method to start a conversation. 3 words ‘used to be’. Unacceptable! That person fool me. I just realized. I keep on scolding that person. But that person tak ada perasaan!!! That person told me u really concerned about him. Yes. Its true. BUT! If you heard about this kind of bad news, what is your response? I’m panic when I heard this and the moment when I’m chatting with this person, my sis came back & saw my look. A pale & sickly complexion…She asked ‘are you okay?’ Please, to my all dear friends, I don’t like to be fooled especially this kind of ‘bad news’. April’s fool is coming, I wish nobody fool me again.

Gaga in the office? yes! Her nickname is Gaga. A fresh graduate who enter my company, did part-time job before, strong background (in term of her family background- daddy, mum & bro worked in investment bank/commercial bank), english educated. Interested? Do tell me if u wan her hp no (but plz finish read my post 1st).

Gaga doesnt know how to speak in Mandarin. Before she enter into my company, everyone thought that she is 'banana', very smart. So... everyone did wrong assumption. Her way to talk with colleagues,  her attitude, her 'style'....I made a conclusion- her parents over 'sayang' her. When my leader teach her, she doesnt want to listen, ask her 'do you have any question?' NO! this is her answer.

I dont know what she is thinking. She always ask something very weird. For example, during lunch time(1st day), she asked 'hey, how come all the guys go for lunch in a gang only, girls and guys not joining together for lunch?'. Okay, maybe she wish to meet her mr right in the office. I'm sure this is mission impossible.

Okay, back to job. 1st day, she showed 'not willing to learn' face. My leader spent half day to teach her, in the end, she did many things wrongly. I understand that it will not be easy for fresh graduate to learn/memorize all in the 1st day. However, she did something wrong & is very serious. I'm sure you all know what is quality control (QC). Before we release our report, leader will QC to make sure the report quality. So what she did? She released the report by herself. Luckily one of my colleague found it before the report is sent to client. She blamed my leader for teaching her wrongly. So who did wrong? when my leader is teaching her, i sit beside them. Obviously, is her who did wrongly. My leader scold her and her respond is...? *_* another angry face.

The next day, she called to subject company to confirm information. (this is 1 of my job scope). There are minimum 5 keys needed to be confirmed, so what she did? She confirm other information rather than this 5 keys?! This is called individualism?

Another case, she unable to get the subject company's contact number. Our procedure is we have to call to telecom to check director contact and others. So, my leader tell her our procedure. Again, what happened to her? 'huh? why so ma fan and showing 'black' face.' this is her respond.

Another serious case. She cheat us. She didnt contact to the subject company. She told us that nobody answer. We tried to contact the subject company. Yes, we did it & confirm all the information. She always said 'i think', 'probably' & 'maybe'. When we asked who told you all this information? she/he said what to you? At this moment, she gave you this answer, next minutes, she say nono, I think is she/he say blablabla like that. Huh? what is i think? she always cant give a firm answer and try to gv a ''reasonable'' reason. But she failed. We know she is cheating.

Yesterday, my leader and me scold her in the morning. She blamed my leader.
huh, you expect i can memorize all this?
your company's system so complicated.
why your company got so many rules?
I dont think i got any problem lo.
you didnt teach me, how can i know what should i do?
next time u must make sure i write down all the notes...

These are what she said..I cant recall all..
We didnt expect it, but she never ask when she face problem.
Everyone used same system, are you 90yrs old lady? dont know how to use computer?
why so many rules? all my colleagues including me have to follow..she want to get exception?
Im sure u got mental problem.
My leader spent half day teach her, same as me, I taught her yesterday and she caused me has to rush my report until 1am.
'Make sure?!!' cant u automatic take a pen and write it down? yesterday I forced her to take a pen & paper to write down what i teach. Is forced! she is unwilling to write! Yes! such a lazy girl and her handwriting is terrible!

A weird lady and we called her Gaga! I wish she resign! Beh Tahan!!!!!!!!!!!!
dont blame me for writing all of this. I really need to release it!

感恩

前两天,我参加了一个葬礼。四周的人都变得很严肃,远远听见佛经。大家都有着沉重的心情,只想死者安息。当时的我不停地想,人为何突然会离去?离开这世界后,会到哪儿?如果有一天,我突然走了,会有什么事发生?(我并没有自杀念头,只是世事难料)我总觉得自己一个人离开这世界并不害怕,感到害怕的人却是还在世上的亲人,他们需要承受的事实是可怕又残酷的。人生,生-老-病-死,这都无法避免,当留在世上时,就该珍惜身边的人。不要真的后悔了,才会珍惜。

珍惜,感恩我现在拥有的一切。

December wish :)

December is a lovely & romantic month. All the shopping malls full of Christmas decorations. Everyone plans where to go & how to celebrate Christmas & New Year (including me). Mmm...any idea? I wish I can go to Tanzini restaurant this coming month. But I'm sure this restaurant is fully booked on 24/25/31 dec. : (

Tanzini, a very high class restaurant, is located on 28th of GTower, Jalan Tun Razak. (why I keep on promoting this restaurant?). Because of its nice environment with KLCC view.

http://www.tanzini.com.my

I keep on asking myself- whose birthday is coming?or any farewell? hahaha.... I just want to give myself a reason/excuse of going to this restaurant for dinner. hahaha...So, who interested? I should buy a nice dress, be 1day rich lady  & enjoy my dinner at there. (lol, dreaming again.)


红蜻蜓



当烦恼越来越多 玻璃弹珠越来越少 我知道我已慢慢地长大了
红色的蜻蜓曾几何时 也在我岁月慢慢不见了

还记得这是小学六年级的经典歌曲,11年后听见这首歌却有着不一样的感觉,一种酸溜溜的感觉。时间过得真快,好怀念以前的读书生活。烦恼真的越来越多,总是有解决不完的问题,其实外表坚强的我偶尔也想有个肩膀依靠,至少不会感觉孤单(哈哈,只是突然感触)。23年,不断地改变,惊觉地发现自己原来变了许多。内向的我却变成主动的我(有多主动?私底下告诉你。。哈哈。。)。有人说“你很静!”但我总是怎么回答“你还没看过我疯癫的时候。” 听着这首歌,我会想起很多事,开心的,伤心的,依依的在我心里。突然间,我问了自己一个问题 “有做过后悔的事吗?”想了想。。。有吗?不知道为何有想哭的感觉,那个感觉很难形容,不是伤心,只是生命没take 2,错过的东西,不会再回来。我记得小学儿童节的情景;我记得中学跳舞的日子;我记得大学第一个旅行的趣事。你们还记得吗?红色的蜻蜓曾几何时 也在我岁月慢慢不见了。。。红色的蜻蜓就如我的朋友。。。每个人都有他们的生活了,再聚也可能是几年后的事,你们最近过得好吗? :)

New Life

During my Uni study life (2007-2010), my lifestyle--> slept at 3am/4am & wake up at 11am/12pm. I love calculation & figure but not accounting (income statement/balance sheet) & I hate doing thesis because I need to do research & waste a lot of time. I cant get A in all my accounting subjects.
So..?
What kind of lifestyle now?
I slept at 10pm, wake up at 6am. I work as research analyst & need to analyse & key in financial statement & I have to do some research. Ops! 360 degree changes! haha... its unbelievable. Everyday research, calling, data entry, analysis.
I joined my 1st company since october 2010. Quite tired as I need to OT to finish my works on time but I love my team members, they are friendly & willing to teach me [I'm the youngest & got a lot of nicknames that created by my senior :) ].
As fresh graduate, I didnt request/demand/think too much for my 1st job. What I need is working experience & salary that can cover my expenses + extra money for me to save. I heard quite a lot of comments (regarding my company) from my seniors. What's wrong? mmm...Quite P&C :) haha.. I noticed that this company has high employees turnover, but what are the factors? I really dont know. It is a multinational company & has branches in more than 30 countries. (wah?) In Msia, this company joint venture with a Sing company. So... I believe that 99.9% of my friends dont know about my company. Curious about how I get this job? The answer:through jobstreet. I'm one of them who doesnt know this company at all before I joined this company. :P
I really learned a lot from my seniors. Eg- How to give a credit rating for a company. Thanks for my seniors.
How about my study? the answer: blank.
I stop (temporary) my study. The reason is I feel tired after working & no motivation to study. A bit suffer how should I haddle my study. Everytime look at the book, max 2 pages, I will feel sleepy..hahaha...study mood, pls come pls come... (lol, look like those chines ppl 招魂)
November, my lovely month. (Happy Birthday to myself <3)

New Challenge

After a long break, I hv partially started my new life. partially? Yes, I have registered CFA exam but I'm still looking for job. lol... So, What am I busy doing now? The answer is self-studying + waiting call. Wah, highly motivated?haha~~Yes,probably because of the environment influences. Now, I'm just like taking another course, at least 3years to complete it.(Hopefully I can pass this 3 papers within this 3 years.) My 1st paper will be on June 2011 and is MCQ. woh~ very easy? No, the passing rate is very low and I have to finish read 6 books before exam. This 6 books equal to total subjects for 2 long semesters in my UTAR life. It cover business ethics, international finance, financial derivatives, QT, FSA, economics, portfolio mgmt, Treasury and Banking Mgmt... @.@Faint~~ Ethics topic is the one I hate :( I hv no choice... But something that is very interesting.....I hv a new 'teacher' for my CFA. Haha...Deng, deng, deng, deng! Is my laptop! lol... Let me tell you why I will say that my laptop is my new teacher. It's really interesting (for me).Haha... I have registered CFA and selected my book as ebook(there are options-either ebook or printed books). Then in my ebook, there are a lot of features- highlighter, notes(can write down any important things), and an icon 'start speaking' in my ebook...Hohoho...When I click it, someone read the book...High tech!lol...(hehe, I never purchase any ebook before, this might be a new thing for me only- in cantonese ''dai hiong li" ). My new 'teacher', love her very much...at least I will not feel boring when I read the books... About My career, when, where to work? I hv just sent my resume to 2 companies. Wish that they will call me as soon as possible. Good Luck to me and my dear,sy. Oh ya, my dear sy, as you know, we all care you very much, hopefully you can recover from 'sickness', okay? Be stronger, Be happy~~ I like to see your smiling face! ^^ Say again- call me if you need me. lol...    

志愿




还记得小学与中学时,在志愿的格子上你是填了什么吗?
昨天收拾了我的房间,书桌,看见了小学的成绩单,课外活动册子。。。哈哈~ 小学的一年级的志愿是?歌星!?空中小姐!?哇哈哈哈~~ 笑破肚皮哦~五音不全去当歌星?身高160cm以下的四眼妹当空中小姐?小时真的很天真,总是想当明星,歌星,空中小姐/飞机师。而最普遍的志愿是医生,护士,律师,老师。。。你记得你小学的志愿是什么吗?印象中其实我很讨厌填写志愿或是写我的志愿的文章,因为来来去去都是那几个志愿,没什么特别,何况志愿与现实是有差别的。但我还记得我有一位小学朋友的志愿很特别-考古学家。怎么我会那么记得?其实纯粹是当时没人填写考古学家,只有我那位朋友写,感觉考古学家是个很神圣的职业(其实当时的我,什么都不懂 XD),当时我还有那仰慕他的感觉。哇哈哈~小学生有着那天真无邪的思想~而现在我那位小学朋友是一位考古学家吗?不是。他读商科了。你小学的志愿和你现在的工作是同等的吗?我想应该少于50%的人吧~





再看看我中学的志愿。。。
奇怪,有人的志愿是商人吗?我也不晓得为何我会填写商人~ 什么样的商人?一头雾水。我该填写银行家!哈哈哈哈~小学与中学的志愿几乎完全不一样~大学呢?我想大学的目标比较明确,知道自己的方向~ 原来小学,中学的日子都是混过去的~不知当时在做什么,想什么。哈哈~ ~
其实每个人都一样,小时候想当大人,而大人却又想当小朋友~
2010的志愿,能否当一个长不大的小朋友?
^^

Nowadays, everyone wishes to work at bank. Banking job is a good job? Many benefits? high bonus? High salary? All of these are the factors that make everyone apply banking job? Some of the unrelated degree holders (sciences) are also looking for banking job. How about me? I'm graduate of UTAR (Degree of Banking and Finance) but.......one of the incident happened recently which make me feel that are the bank officers really qualified? And am I qualified to be bank officer? I'm not going to tell you what was happening. Just want to share my thinkings to my friends who currently work at bank or plan to work at bank.

I know that banks pay high salary/bonus/benefits to their employees. As chinese said ' There is no free lunch in this world' As a bank officer, please be responsible and qualified. If you are bank officer, can you feel the stress when you need to deal with customers(all are regarding to money $$$) everyday? Dont be careless. Those money are not yours. All the bank officers need to extremely careful for all the customer transactions. So what is the meaning qualified and responsible? For example, both to sign/either to sign, do you know what is the difference? If the customer tells you ABC story, can you fully trust him/her and  need not to check the records? These are just the basic knowledges which everyone know. There are thousands of fraud cases happened recently. If the bank officers careless again, fraud cases going to increase... I'm banking student but I dont fully know all the banking practices. So how about the others degree holders/spm holders who  dont have banking/finance/accounting knowledges? I fully disagree that bank hires those that doesnt have such knowledges. Of course you may think that I'm arrogant? Bla Bla Bla at here since I know a bit of banking knowledges? (I'm not...... ) Let me give you an example. If you dont have medical skills/knowledge, and the hospital hire you as doctor, what will be happen? Just like what chinese said '神棍'. This example seems like too serious d...hahaha.... Of course those incidents that could be happened in banking field doesnt cause death, but it could result loss of RM million/billion, bank reputation or bank bankrupt( for example-barings bank)?   

To my friends and myself, be responsible and qualified employees. Try not to make mistakes. (*Especially my friends who will be doctors in future. ^ ^)  So what kind of jobs suitable for me & I'm qualified? Searching...

Crazy Trip I


《毕业》不是我想象中的开心,
一个普通的心情,
甚至是有点寂寞,闷,无所事事。
在忙得最巅峰时,
突然,一切结束了,
就如你从高处跌下来,
什么都没了。
这将是零的开始,
一切就如婴儿那样,
什么都从新开始,
社会就如虎口。。


考完试的隔天,
终于享受一下了,
1车,8人,3天,
浮罗交怡
1000+照片,
20+影片,
哇哇哇~
只能有那个反应,
1000+照片,

自由行轻松,自在,
重要的两样是-交通,地图。
一辆车比两辆车好,
能疯疯癫癫地在车上闹,
哈哈哈哈~



我们的第一站,山顶,
ops,缆车维修。。。
只好临时改变行程。








鳄鱼园(crocodile farm)
与其他的鳄鱼园没什么分别,
不同的是- 人,
《照片》
留下了当时的回忆。





Telaga tujuh
又称‘七仙女瀑布’
chee hoe 原来来找我们。
7女1男。
哈哈哈~
当时的我们,
不只留下累汗,
也留下了我们的笑声。







山寨版《titanic》
^^



相信大家都知道这是哪里,
去浮罗交怡,没来过这儿,
应该不算来过吧。
eagle square


除了她,还是她。
无论在校,在外,
她总是把欢乐带给大家,
鞋子烂了,还笑了一番。
我们的第一大笑姑婆
Li yin


真正疯癫的时刻,
我们有多疯狂?
20+影片正是我们的罪证。
lolz...但我封口。
因为这是我们8人的快乐时刻,
不能与人分享。
^^

Crazy trip II

第二天的行程满满的,
eagle feeding, Wild Life Park, museum.
有什么特别的事发生?
中间有小插曲-船冒烟,
你尝试过在海中间换船吗?
你尝试过在没穿上救生衣的情况下,大胆地在船头拍照?
你尝试过在博物馆里模仿照片里的人吗?



















‘白’中一点‘黑’
^^